I’d text someone I loved while I was drunk, but sadly, there is no one that I love anymore. And this breaks my heart in a different way than before, because now it’s just me with the broken heart.
Whenever I get in trouble with my parents, it’s never a cut and dry punishment. Instead, they proceed to forcibly question me until they delve into my most personal issues. I don’t like who I am, so please stop making me admit it to you.
I want a friend with benefits. Not so much sexually, but more like we both try to hang out one-on-one and in groups a lot because we mutually agree to be best friends to each other.
Is it really too much to ask for the bold truth sometimes? Stop pussyfooting around and go tell someone the bold truth, because believe it or not, they just might be waiting on it.
Aaaaaannnd I’m up alone again. I love hanging with my friends, but I don’t see how I’m always the one who ends up staying up alone. I don’t try to. I just look around and suddenly everyone has fallen asleep.
I’m trying to actually care for myself, and I’m actually getting better at it.
Sometimes I get irrationally annoyed and pissed off because my friends have never paid directly for when I took the blunt end of the deal when we got caught. I’m rightfully owed at least a couple hundred by all fairness, but I’ll never get it.
I think I’m going to start cutting back on my smoking. I smoke every single day with my friends, and it’s great, but eventually you just realize there are other things to do with your life. Like drinking. Definitely more drinking. :3
I’m in love with coffee now. I thought it impossible, but it has become reality. Someone come watch Netflix and drink coffee with me.
I hate who I am when I get uncontrollably angry. I hate myself. I just had to sit through my mom talking to my doctor about how I have anger issues and suicidal tendencies. That on top of being sick with two different kinds of issues already. So now I have to take steroids, some antibiotics, some drug that’s supposed to help with my flaring anger issues, get a shot, and have blood drawn. These are the days I feel like I’m not a person, but a test subject.
Leaving for Italy in the morning. I don’t know how much I’ll be posting, but I’ll be back in the US on the 12th. Then college starts again. Can’t wait.
I’m going to try and take the time to make my blog more active and about the things I like more.
Today I got two paychecks from Moe’s and when I added it all up, I’ve officially earned $1,000 for my parents. I’ve literally held onto only $100 from all four of my paychecks ($29, $24, $27, and $20.) After doing the math, I have $1,256.25 left to pay them. If I continue to work both jobs at this rate, I might actually get one paycheck to keep for myself by the end of the summer.